Back on track

Days have passed. Alhamdulillah!! everything is going back to normal. By Allah's grace, I just survived another trial of my life. recent months have been crucial moments to me. Crucial in a sense that I had to make my decision to what I am going to do with my life. It was indeed the hardest decision making point in my life so far. When options laid before you, that's the part when you think of the things what value most, what makes you happy as of the moment, and what you feel is THE CALLING.


I had been decisive since then. However, there were many step-backs I had to make. There were some considerations I had to put into account. Plus, there were emotional setbacks that almost lead to a halt in realizing what I am happy of doing to the extend of almost giving up. With Allah's guidance, things that seems so bleak were made clearer.

But Allah's test didn't stop there. When I seem to be all so ready, my physical strengths loomed wearying. I got ill two days before leaving. I lost my appetite. My strength was signaling to exhaustion. It seemed so odd coz I had just cleared medical consultation . But the time I went to see a doctor, she said I may have taken food that my system made to react. What was very hard was the night before leaving. I got so weak and questions pouring my head. How can I leave like this? How am I going to carry on when I got so weak? I don't even want to see concerned face and eyes more so when she said to me not to leave with that condition. I told Omi not to cast worries. Allah was just testing me how I much I going to hold on with this decision I made.


The toughest was the discomfort and the pain I had to go through while traveling from Marawi to CDO down to Manila. My head almost explode to its gruesome pain. My auntie, uncle and cousin has to carry my baggage coz I was so weak to handle my stuff. Despite of it all, I placed my faith in Allah. He will guide all the way and that He only tried my patience.

Here I am. I am back on track. I survived the bit of more trials await ahead. Alhamdulillah, even though I come to the brink of giving up, Allah guided me through. What point I am making here is"What leads to good things are difficult". "Tests are leading to what we want in life". Its like taking exam in the class as what my friend Hana mentioned in courtesy of Mufti Menks lecture that when you pass one exam, that leads to another  difficult test. These series of tests lead to our goals. of course, let us not forget that our goal is all but seeking pleasure of Allah S.W.A

Gee!! I am here. I choose this. I need to stand firm on it. I need to cling on to this. I will do what I can do. Then, I leave the rest to Allah. I cannot predict what will unfold tomorrow but He knows what is best for us.

Alhmdulillah..

Another round of cake. Last meeting (08/09/11) with my closest and bestest friends.  Thanks to them. They went to house instead when I couldn't make it to go out. Love u Ate Mitch, Ate Ints, Ashley and Najool. To Ashley, No cake for u when you made a shotgun decision to  fly to Manila and down to Kuwait. Good luck to your life there.

Above All, I love Ommi...Nothing compares a mother 'sconcern.